a tribute for tata….

my life would be different if he’s here… my happy moments would be a lot happier if he’s around… i wouldn’t have felt so much pain if only he didn’t leave us…

but of course, things happen for a reason… or reasons for that matter… i’ve learned so many things in this life when he was gone… things beyond my perception, and things that gave me mixed emotions…

i’ve learned to give importance to other people, to the things i have and for all the blessings… i found the answers to why i don’t have the things i seek…

but it’s also inevitable for me to regret my past mistakes… of not being able to show him how much i care… of being a spoiled brat…

i salute him for his unconditional love he endowed upon us… his sweat and tears just to provide for our needs… his love and care… taking for granted every little thing he’d given me…

i miss the old days… the ‘pasalubongs’ esp when i was sick – he would buy me everything i want, i miss dinner time when he would carry me at his back on the way to our dining room; disturbing him from watching PBA games just to give me a glass of water; at evening, i would lie at his side while watching tv; when our meal is fried chicken, he would give me my favorite part; and before i sleep, he would never forget to scratch my palm to get me to sleep…

i just wish he became proud at least for what i have achieved when he was still with us… and i just hope he’s still proud of me now though i don’t have much to brag about…

i also hope that he’s not sad if he’ll be able to know our current situation… i know if he’s here, it would not have happened…

but knowing that he’s in a greener pasture somehow soothes the pain… i hope, i would meet him there to ease the longliness…

i’m glad that before he left, he already knew that he’s my idol… my hero…